Tuesday, April 01, 2008

It just stings a little

A month ago Tree and I signed up for the San Francisco Nike Women's marathon.

It's a lottery.

She got in.

I didn't.

I'm trying to be ok with it.

I'm just a number to them, but they can't hear inside my head, "You're not good enough..."

And that hurts.

Guess I'll go back out and finish shoveling the driveway.


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16 comments:

MPPs Mom said...

WHAT? no fair.

Nat said...

That's really too bad.

merrymishaps said...

I didn't get in either.

Mitzi Green said...

you're right, you're just a number to them--it's not personal. and just be glad that, HAD you got in, you could have actually done it. some of us collapse after walking from our car to the target entrance.

Gretchen said...

Mitzi-It's not personal, except they asked you all sorts of personal questions like: what running shoes do you wear, what's your finishing time, and WHY are you running.

perhaps if I'd worn nikes, had a faster time, and some super-inspirational story. But I don't.

Tree said...

G - I am super bummed you were not in the lottery! It truly was a lottery.

Next time, we register as a team.

I do not wear Nikes, either. In fact, I hate them.

I could bag it and come run something different with you? Running is about comradery.

Mitzi Green said...

just imagining my answers to those questions:

what shoes do you wear: whatever's on sale.

what's your finishing time: before i'm 40, with any luck

why are you running: because there's a man running behind me and he has a knife.

Gretchen said...

Tree - Don't you dare bag it. I mean it.

Army Wife said...

I went to a conference one time...that told us all when we hear those "voices"...

The I am fat, ugly, and not as good as other people voice...

To change the tone of it...

to make it sound like a cartoon voice, and move on...

I am sorry you did not get into the lottery...

darn Nike...

Army Wife said...

and laughing at Mitzi, and thinking my answers are similar!

Aimee Greeblemonkey said...

oh no! I am so sorry!

Aimee Greeblemonkey said...

and sorry to Merry too.

Lotta said...

Tell that voice to shut the heck up!

Loralee Choate said...

Everyone knows what this feels like and it SUCKS A FREAKING DUCK.

Tell the voices to shut up or I will have to come and bitchslap them.

HUGS.

BlueBella said...

Damn them. Funny, asking questions like that seems pretty shifty if it truly is a lottery.

Anywho - you rule . . .have already run one marathon, and will run another one .. .and just not waste a trip to SF to do it!

mothergoosemouse said...

That sucks. Because you are absolutely good enough.